Ani DiFranco:Subconscious

on one hand i'm walking
the way that i do
lookin like i'm lost in thought
but i'm lookin for you
it's so subconscious
the way that i feel
too bad my subconscious life
is the more real

and i ain't in the best shape
that i've ever been in
but i know where i'm going
and it ain't where i've been
i know where i'm going
and it ain't where i've been

some kind of anxiety
has gotten hold of my heart
and i just wanna run home
when i feel it start
plastic bottles of water
sealed windows, forced air
gazillions of cell phones
beaming through my hair

and i ain't in the best shape
that i've ever been in
but i know where i'm going
and it ain't where i've been
i know where i'm going
and it ain't where i've been

i'm tossing and turning
between sleepless dreams
i'm poised on the edge of
what it all means
so i turn my back
and i spread my arms wide
and i let myself fall in
way deep inside

and i ain't in the best shape
that i've ever been in
but i know where i'm going
and it ain't where i've been
i know where i'm going
and it ain't where i've been